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Hello my friends, you know you can do so much better, so much more.

It’s time i reflected on myself and let everybody know the person i am.

Hello everybody, I’m Shereen.

staying up late till the night watching taiwan dramas with my dad, gawking over cool fashion statements in Seventeen with my sister, playing tennis with my brother for 4 hours straight, sieving through my mum’s clothes cupboard, reading newspapers page by page, surfing blogs of awesome bloggers, looking at my organiser and really enjoying my everyday makes me feel alive.

feel as in i’m not living for the sake of living. i’m living with a purpose, with a joy, with a family. doing the craziest things with delta, chionging before every test with phy tuition class, mugging till my eyeballs drop with 4H, searching through my inbox for the last time i texted my best buddies, desperately finding the correct angle to take a picture, begging my mum to let me go on a delta/disco/4H outing, feeling that i’m missing out a lot and then returning home to find otherwise, dodging every teachers-with-aura, complaining about rude teachers and absurd stall 3 uncle, convincing myself that i’m good enough have became my everyday routine. to hope i can find something that’d make me belong, make me feel right, seems so difficult.

doing the right things, saying the right stuffs. is life about living it to the fullest or really, just pretending who we’re never going to be? there’s a thin line drawn between imagination and dreams. just like needs and wants, happiness and cravings, lust and love.

i’ve hads enough of hearing “next time”, “forget it”, “not possible”. what’s the point of living to your death bed and saying, “i wish i had done more.”? the thing that disappoints me most is knowing that i could have done so much better, so much more.

i regret not going for the many disco outings that have been painstakingly planned. i regret not neglecting gayle in year1. i regret not going for the platoon outings that could have been possible if i had just tried a little harder. i regret not listening to my mother. i regret snapping at people who were unlucky enough to talk to me when i was grumpy/tired/upset. i regret being sensitive. i regret pushing away those who cared enough to tell me honest opinions. i regret not volunteering in cca or council. i regret not participating in many NCC courses i thought would be too time consuming. i regret not involving my parents in my life earlier. i regret not talking to weilin, lok hang and sebastian after we’ve left the council. i regret not keeping in contact with those that left disco before the 29th. i regret making impulse buys. i regret not enduring in whatever i do. i regret not continuing piano lessons. i regret missing out on going out with shirleen, valerie and qiaowei. i regret not staying till shirleen was consoled when she lost her phone. i regret not going for 57th. i regret not learning how to cook and sew. i regret not giving my friends their birthday presents. i regret forgetting valentine’s day presents. i regret ignoring friends. i regret.

my goal is to make all the above change by the end of year 2009. i’m never going to do things i’d end up regretting. i’ll make sure i spend every 10mins, everyday, every week of my life packing them with events and activities that’d make me feel fufilled. starting this year, i admit i’ve changed a great deal. starting now, i’m going to ensure that i never repeat my mistakes again.

HI DISCO, shall we www.themindcafe.com.sg again?

HI DELTA, shall we www.sinema.sg/oldschool ? it’s movie watching but they’ve got really good movie deals!

HI DELTA, who wants to join NCC-MCYS camp this year? 

HI physics tuition class, if we all pass this round’s physics test, we’d go for a mac lunch together+treat mr erkan yes? &if we all get at least a B, we’d all go for a movie and mac lunch? hehehe.

HI 4H girls, shall we go far east plaza for shopping this hols? www.ohsofickle.blogspot.com has a lovely vintage store there.  

HI journalism club members, shall we join the Community Games Day 2009 together?   

HI those who wants to join photography next year, i heard they’ve to write essays. how about www.clubsnap.org ? if you’re interested, ask me along!

HI EVERYBODY, am intending to start a blogshop again with several people. do watch out this blog for more updates okayz? very appreciated, tyvm.

HI ANYBODY, do y’ll want to go people’s park to learn handicrafts?

HI, if y’ll have any old stamps or old magazines y’ll no longer want, text/MSN me okay? Am in search of old magazines for a self initiated proj. will be of great help, MSN me @ shereen_1093@hotmail.com tyvm

trust, hope, faith

monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, everyday of the week is filled with homeworks, tests, ncc, midyear reminders, CID, newspapers, lack of sleep and tempers. i hate myself when i’m tired, seriously. when i’m working my guts out towards a goal, i feel a sense of satisfaction. when i’m dead tired and worn out, it’s a different matter. i get grumpy and irritable.

am studying for chem test. i’ve been studying for chem test since i came home from school, which is 4pm. omgz, i didnt even bathe till 7pm. knew of math test results today. am not extremely satisfied but still, i want to get back my phy test although i have this really bad feeling that i’m not going to do well am afraid. screams at all the tests that are coming my way, i hope buffaloes trample all over you~

‘about me’ yes?

 

 

 

been studying physics with A1 PHYSICS FTW!

the above is proof. that’s drawn free hand on MSN.

this is drawn with Paint.

i think i’m going to collapse onto my keyboard right now if i dont get to bed but “explain why aluminium rod cannot be charged by friction” is keeping me from shutting my eyelids completely.

today was a 1Q324UYW34ERWLSDJKFNKLERUBTQW4 day.

morning assembly was annoyingly scary. math was light. no physics. chem was usual, and now i understood more. chinese was newspaper-reading session and i love newspaper-reading session. after school: NAPFA 5 items, disappointing. physics tuition, 3 hours, till 8pm, taxing but fufilling.

mugged so much for phy test tmrw. if i dont do well/satisfactory, i’m going to be really really disappointed and whack myself against the wall. am going crazy. need sleep. nights.

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[edited: 3/4/2009]

physics test over.

this post sounds like an extract of “the diary of adrian moles”. it’s random and interestingly specific. I’m not saying adrian moles is interesting. on the contrary, he’s rather raw and sick.

anyw wore a no3 today, happy x1314. i love lanyards and badges. it carries a motivating sense. like, woah these are the results of my 3 years in ncc.

am tired, i swear i’m going to go offline after reading the powerpoint slides on subject combinations, blog on wordpress, track people’s blogs and reflecting on this week. then after going offline, i’d head straight to the toilet, brush my teeth and SLEEP.

So, learning points gathered from reflections:

1. sleep by 10.30pm. (11.00pm max)

2. need to find enjoyment in everything i do, again. e.g. love chem.

3. need to get in control of my emotions.

4. need to stop complaining and gossiping.

5. like people say, life is short, take it easy stop stressing.

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ABOUT TO SLEEP WTF WHEN AN URGENT MATTER CROPPED UP.

still afraid it’s going to be over all too soon.

“you thought my heart a sense it never knew”

 

FSD FINALS WAS FUN TO THE MAXXXXX!

To be very precise, the ‘fun’ came after the finals. Fsd finals was a tense and gut-wrenching time. Personally, I was v v afraid that I’d just crumble under all the solid bangs and perfect coordinations the zai schools gave. Fortunately, the pre-competition rehearsals we had in the mph were hilarious and relaxing. It reminded me of the fun element in every rehearsal, in this competition. And I find myself repeating, “who cares if we dont win? we still have fsd girls. we’re still from rvncc. we’re still a team.”

i’ve come to realise how comfort zones and status quo are the main factors who make us take things for granted, that “things will not change” so ultimately, it doesnt really matter yes?

Attaining a third position in the nationals confirmed our status as a strong UG unit in school. FYI, the “school was impressed by” our “performance” and “hopes to see us performing in YOG celebrations.” o.o surprising yes? besides, getting into the top three allows us to participate in NCC events as performers. It’s a really happy thought that this finals doesnt mark the end of our journey as fsd girls. am looking forward to it already 

FSD FTW!

Pulau Semakau 4H-09

HELLO 4HBODY, IF YOU TOOK PICTURES TODAY, KINDLY SEND THEM TO ME!

my blog title is the folder name for pulau semakau trip 09 heehee i know it’s darmned cool anyw the trip was surprisingly not too bad, took plenty of cool sunshine shots. although in the end, we had to wait 30mins for the bus to arrive, 4H ended up buying chips and we’ve been busy eating till 6.30pm.

first day of school.

nothing new.

i’m not being a dull person, but:

1. the usual was irritating me on the very first day of school

2. math went on as usual. i multi tasked- finished ws2D and copied down the pointers for today’s lesson.

3. the day went on with our common fears of mr history teacher and mrs discipline mistress.

ooooookz, there were stuffs that were out-of-ordinary.

for example:

1. there was a joyful blackout this morning. unfortunately, it ended before math lesson started. good things always end early in this school.

2. we had no history lesson. joy to the world~~

tmrw’s cca. am dreading it with a million anchors on my feet. ):

when will this end?

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CONFESSION: was searching through Shirleen’s archieves for charlie’s pictures i’ve lost. heh :X and saw this quiz that was meant to waste my time.

So, currently feel like doing so.

1. What disappoints you the most?

Knowing that i could have done so much better.

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?

I’d go anywhere as long as they are with my delta girls. P.S. mr tan, preferably vietnam or USA where there are awesome shopping goodies~~

3. What’s the most romantic thing you would like to do with the one you love?

visiting the zoo i sound extremely kiddy but it’s true okayz.

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

Yes.

Anybody who gives no as a staight answer either went through a lot of bad relationships with a rich hubby/rich parent or is lying. Some people say, with money you may not be happy. I may live in a big white house by the sea, with branded clothes and cute pumps in my wardrobe. Yet if my family and friends are not with me, i wont be happy. Likewise, with happiness, you dont necessarily need money. i get joy from going to school. i get joy from knowing i’ve done my best.

Some things money cant buy, family friends unconditional love drive passion…etc. Some things money can buy, shopping goodies that make people happy. It really depends on how you view happiness. To me, happiness is both. It comes together with enjoying life.

For now, money makes people happy.

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

No more exams.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?

No. Frankly, i’m not even thinking about going on a shopping spree. I cant live without toilet papers, television programmes, comfortable PJs, an organiser and baked rice. no money=no such things.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?

Love.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

Go on a family holiday! ;D 

9. What do you dream of doing in the future?

I want to have a happy family, live with my parents, have occassional meet ups with my siblings (without their husbands/wives), go on a movie marathon, play tennis regularly (i dont want to be a typical plump and usually inconsiderate auntie), tour the world, shop in USA, be a boss, help others.

10. Do you know who is super junior?

HAHAHAHAHHA there’s such a thing?!?!

11. What makes you happy?

playing tennis, listening to sad songs, finishing my homework(s), field trips, camps, delta, best friends, funny MSN conversations, painting my toe nails, shopping, getting a new novel, reading, newspapers, workshops, busy schedules, answers, accessories, straw bags, spongebob, stitch, yummy food, mummy, daddy, taiwan dramas with my sister, learning new items, CIP, sleeping, sunshine, mooncakes, peanut butter sandwich, …

every little thing in my life can make me happy~~

12. What type of person do you hate the most?

people who dont admit to their mistakes.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?

fresh out of university?

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

my family.

15. Do you believe in Life after Death?

dont know.

16. (I have no idea why this question is missing)

17. Which cartoon character you like most?

Spongebob! i really do behave like a kiddy.

18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?

if i really really really like that person, yes.

19. Who do you always bully?

HI I’M AN INNO KIDDO, NOT A BULLY YO~

20. If you could have a superpower,what would it be?

pusher.

y’ll should seriously watch the show Push, it’s not that bad.

End of ideology

another heart to touch, another sun to shine

you got me deeper and deeper

i’m possibly blinded,

i’m running around, but there’s no where to hide

i start to talk in my sleep.. our souls are divided

i happen to hear slaying demons inside (?!?!?!)

deeper and deeper

i’m possibly blinded

my heart starts to shield and i’m running around

the lyrics seems strange. cant blame me; been hearing cascada’s, metro station’s, Dj koo’s and many other techno songs for the past 3-4 hours. if i start moving in beats of 4, coughcoughcough am not crazy okayz. (A) today’s fsd rehearsal was spent with my face behind my laptop, editing music again and again to make it match our routine. :O anyw the software was fun.

getting fsd tee. 14buckzxczxczxczxczxc!?!?!?!! overreaction. love fsd tee, just maybe not the price.

i cant believe i spent my entire afternoon eating baked rice (it’s just one bowl!) and watching a korean drama with my sister. it’s the funniest to the maxxxxxxxxx. we were making idiotic comments about the romantic scenes of the drama. i know we are real spoilers HAHAHA.

holiday have been awesome. fsd rehearsals, journalism workshop, march camp, homework, revisions, reading sophie kinsella books again, exploring the internet, learning a new software = ultimate I sound like a geek yo~ am dreading monday so much. :/ I realise i have a HUGE clash of schedule. i’ve my dental at 2.30 i’ve my rehearsal at 2.40 i have a school trip from 1. why cant i be bestowed with the power to stop time? apparently, i wasnt selected to be part of the HEROS gang.

school spells 10 weeks of homework, countless deadlines, boring lessons, nasty teachers and lack of sleep; last 10 weeks as RVNCC specialists; 10 weeks before midyears+30% weightage; 10 weeks of confusing friendships, mine and others’; 10 weeks omgz. i’m sincerely sorry for the brutal reminder my friends.

CURRENTLY:

1. waiting for the latest edit of fsd mix to send to Qiaowei. it’s taking exceptionally long.

2. resting my poor ears HAHAHAHAH.

3. contemplating if i should wash my cup or read my papers or play my psp. then deciding 1min later that i’d just stay put.

POST GETTING MEANINGLESS.

WORDPRESS WONT LET ME UPLOAD PICTURES. ):

full stop.